Faux Pas

I love you. Why am I away from you. I miss you so much MitchellHill

“Pride can stand a thousand trials
The strong will never fall
But watching stars without you
My soul cries

Heaving heart is full of pain
Oooh, oooh, the aching”

Deseree- kissing you.

Sums it up. My heart is broken at best.

You only get one life.

Living it without you for these months is killing me.

Do I call and tell you or stay quiet and continue thinking your life is better without me (which no doubt it is)

I think i’ve grown up now.

Today has been such an insanely hard day.

Rest in peace Grandma, two years has gone so slowly without you and I miss you more everyday.
Grieving is so horrible, and i’m grieving for not only the loss of my grandma but for losing her as well. If I could have a wish right now it would be a knock on my window with you standing there with wine and billy madison and cuddles and you telling me about your day.

You make everything happier, and being without you feels like the sunshine has gone from my life

I dreamt last night I came to your house and asked your dad if I could marry you.

Time to watch Marley and Me and cry.

I seem to be punishing myself alot with reminders of you these last two weeks.

Three and a half years today. I wish I was good enough for you. I’d call you up right now and tell you everything that’s in my heart. But I’m still not. I’m trying though. I am so afraid I’ve fucked it up so much that when I am good enough you won’t care to even look at me anymore,let alone anything else. I pray you don’t hate me. I’m sick of being torn and in pain

I need you

and I miss you

and talking about you all night has left me a broken heap in this bed.

I’m wearing the dress you brought me for my birthday.
It somehow feels comforting, like a cuddle from you having it wrapped around me.
But I’d also like to cry very much.

Another sleepless night thinking about you.

This hurts so much, but even if I knew I was good enough now, you wouldn’t have me back.